weaning

Currently I am reading on this topic from different sorces, specially tru the net. I have been wondering when I should discontinue from bf the first born. He is turning 19 months in a week. Only another 5 months to go according to surah Al Baqarah of 2 years bf.

Well, I actually found out that I have been unconsiously trying to wean him. I have to admit I kind of feeling guilty towards him however sometimes I found bf 2 boys is a bit too overwhelming, more than I could handle especially during those 'long' days.

Sometimes me and hubby will distract him, most of the time when we were out and about - time is limited. If we are travelling in the car, then it's fine. And at other times I would simply tell him that I am not in the mood for it - so far with no success as he would cry his heart out. He understands but he refuse to take 'no' for the answer.

I really wonder how many days are left before he would wean. Would he self wean? Am I encoraging him to wean faster?